un dia gris...a gray day

another night without falling asleep and when at dawn i thought that i succed it the first ray of light wake me up… I am more than tired of going around and around in my bed and my thoughts .. I wish I could be more superficial and don’t care of what happens around me… is funny how my worst enemy is myself ... as in my daily struggle I can not conquer my soul ... I would like to fall asleep and sleep days…months…years.. ... today was a gray day…when I get out of bed I go near the window… it was early yet ... the majority continued to sleep ... I turned around and I a smile appeared on my face ... my sister was still asleep also ... I go back to the window…slowly the streets were filled with people…some of them are running are late perhaps…others moving slowly maybe are tired…but a new day has come…begins another day of our lives with new hopes, with sadness to discover without knowing what this day will bring ... but it's a new day and we still have so much to do ... we must seek strength even if we feel that it’s impossible and get out there in that whirlwind of people that only they know where are going and that maybe in their troubles and concerns will not realize that you are there too and you will do the same passing around other people without notice them people that maybe one day you will find again in your way without realize that yours paths are crossing once more…while I do my things now and then my mind is sliding along to fly away ... sometimes a memory brings a smile ...other times a thought makes me land with my feet very firmly on the ground and makes me wake up to reality ... and slowly begin to be lost in my thoughts but no flight in the past or the future but deep down inside my thought in my philosophies

6 months ^^

Who would have imagined that love would come into my life when i least expected ...measuring steps we walk way...everything we do in what concerns us is reasonable ... but who knows what means to truly love if we grow with each new illusion...make compromises in the name of love, forgive their mistakes and we assume our mistakes for fear of losing them...give up your life if necessary...we have learn so many thing and how many we have to learn...me personaly i found that special person...and every day i increases with this feeling...Today we celebrate 6 months since it started this great story...a dream come true ... it's his love that every day determine me more than ever to fight for my existence and remember me that I still have many battles to win...for his love old wounds are healing and i'm learning to be happy...his love is the reason for being here...How nice it is, to find you at last
after so much time alone...how is it that everything looks better when I'm with you??? how is it that nothing is the same????it can't be love, what I feel for you is much more than I ever imagined in an instant I lost my heart without realizing it, I gave you all of it and in my chest I feel a new life where before my heart only slept...you stole my heart with your love, with your heart and your soul I don't want to lose you ever, ever...you stole my heart what can I do?I feel caught by you and I don't want to escape from your life...in an instant you've changed everything what I was waiting for, finally arrived what I couldn't find in anyone else without expecting it...LOVE YOU!!!FOREVER

"When A Woman Loves A Man"

"When the stars are in her eyes
And the sun is in her smile
The only moment in a life
That happens the same time
Is when a woman loves a man

She'll be a mother and a child
Sacrifice her days and nights
And no other will exsist
She'll put her life in every kiss
When a woman loves a man

And you'll be amazed at when you're stumbling
She'll fight for you
And won't let you give in
She'll do all that she can
When a woman loves a man

A soothing breeze always blows
Somebody understands another soul
It's like the planets have aligned
Every sentence has a rhyme
When a woman loves a man

Oh, you'll be amazed how when
You're needing it
She'll fight for you
From the begining to the end
And she'll do all that she can
When a woman loves a man

It's the greatest gift of all
Knowing that unconditionally
She'll catch you when you fall

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooohh, yeah
When a woman loves a man

When the stars are in her eyes
And the sun is in her smile
She'll be a mother and a child
But all at the same time
When a woman loves a man

She'll be your air,
She'll bring you life
She'll make me sacrifice
When a woman loves a man"

Westlife


...a really nice song...describes wery well our action when we love...for me to make some concessions and give everything for someone i love dosen't make this a sacrifice...when you love everything makes sense and there is no imposible...to love means to put that person in first place even before you ... if she is happy no matter anything else ...

one month apart one from each other

only one months ... time spent next to him went so fast despite the fact that we have so many memories that sometimes I think that was a long long time,when I'm around him very quickly time passes and as spending more time next to him instead to get bored I want to spend even more time with him ...but i'm aware thet i need to let him breathe for him to don't get bored of me..but at the same time I am afraid and that know we are apart from each other he will forget about me...people say that:eyes not seen are forgetten... I hope not so in our case ... I think therefore can not imagine what I feel for him and how I miss him when is not with me ...it scare me this great need to have him close almoust every moment and that I love him more every day ... at first I think I have stressed him to much: D. .. now even if I try very hard not to write and not to stay so much on internet I believe and hope that I give him enough freedom ... girls say I should tell everything i'm feeling...I wanted and I originally but maybe it's better not to know ...anyway can not do anything in this regard ... and how to tell him that I dreamed with him every night (although sometimes I wish to not dream with him 'cause after I miss him more), that I wake up in the middle of the night feeling like I can not breathe as making that is far and I will not see him again soon, that I sleep and wake up thinking about him and that every time I have him in my heart and in my thoughts that is my life and that if one day he will stop love me and he would leave me I don't know what would become of me ... I hope he forgot to read;)) or has lost the link ... but If you read ...

one more year going by!!!

...another year has passed in my life ... I want to thank all my friends for being with me this day,my family,my boyfriend family and not least the most important beings in my life ...my boyfriend for the wonderful gift that he made to me... just a few moments ago I found that my gift that came by mail has arrive...I do not know yet what it is but it does not matter ... the most beautiful gift that I could receive I've already received ... I have not ever thought that you can miss someone so much as i feel now the lack of my soul mate..today more than ever I would have liked to have him close embraced him and kiss him ... despite missing him so much and the sensation of a huge emptyness that I will fill only when I will ahve hin close, I am happy ... I didn't thought that this day will bring something special ... never been too special but this year his existence in my life is the best gift ..if i have him in my life and his love i'm not asking anything more for me this is enough ...is my life and always will be ... I have no doubt about ...i love you above all things of this world...je t'aime beaucoup mon cheri!!!

...end of the holiday... j'etais de retour a l'ecole...

...last summer vacation of my student life has ended today.... with new strength and hope that this year we will finish triumphantly, confident we head toward the unknown ...in this year we will try to give all the best from us ... we will make sacrifices thinking that we will be rewarded in the future...

22.09.09

....a closing door leting behind a lot of memories of what we live there...just walls will keep in secret the secret of our hearts ... but the memories i take them with me 'cause are a part of me and the immens love that i have for u...ends here only a stage in ourlives now proceed to another stage with the hope that it will be at least as beautiful as that just ends if not more beautiful ...love u forever!!!:X:*...