I like to write but always what I write was just for my. i never let anybody to read it. but now I decide to write to the world. In this blog isn’t just the story of my life are my thoughts and the things I like too but I will start this blog whit a story about a butterfly and a rose ;)… "There was once upon a time a rose. the rose always used to be happy nothing seems to make her sad. she believed that the world was at her feet and there was no impossible for her. she was a happy rose until one day when she realized that there was a butterfly that makes her happier and that she had feelings for him, but never imagine that those feelings were so big and him will matter so much to her. She didn’t give those feelings much importance she didn’t even remember when she sow him for the first time and when all this feeling start. The rose thought these feelings will soon disappear if she will stop see him. and when the rose was cut and give away she was thinking :”now I will be far away for him and I will not see him anymore and soon all this will be just a memory .i will forget about this beautiful butterfly maybe I will see others more beautiful and he will be erase from may memory for ever.” After a while when the rose was in the market waiting that someone will buy her and she almost forget about the beautiful butterfly the butterfly fly above the rose. The rose was in shock but at the same time was happy to see him again.the hole time that the rose was in the market the butterfly was passing by more times and the rose was so happy to se him passing so many times that’s why she consider this must be the destiny that make him fly above her so many times. With this believe she aboard him but the butterfly very carefully reject the feelings of the rose. her pain was so big that the beauty of the rose was wilting.

14.10.2008

Two years know since I know this feelings doesn’t have any sense…and even if I know this I can’t stop have this feelings…yes it’s true for a month and a half was better and I was thinking all this is just a history…something that it will remain buried in my memory…today was really a good day…I even go out with my friend’s to celebrate my birthday…and I don’t know why now that I’m alone here in my room his memory through a life again…they say that the love that you feel for someone can’t vanish in a second but I’m fighting against this feeling for a long time now sometimes I believe that I will never win this battle…there is almost 6 months since I don’t see him and when I believed that I succeed to bury him somewhere in the past all this are coming back to me…maldita mi suerte

It is said that the first love is forever and that the first is the true love and that others are just to forget the firs one .... sometimes I ask myself if I had my first love and if I will never forget him? ... and now I’m only at that stage when I can realize that it doesn’t hurt that much but my love is still here and never will go completely and just a gesture or a word will open another wound that will left a scar in heart ... for me maybe doesn’t exist a happy ending ... if you will read these lines never you will know that are dedicated to you ,who wrote it and shadow because for you this is what I was like a shade or maybe just a ghost passing through your life I was invisible till I’ve sad:”hey look I'm here” ... and then you don’t liked what you saw and I was transformed into a shadow ...