joi, 3 decembrie 2009
another night without falling asleep and when at dawn i thought that i succed it the first ray of light wake me up… I am more than tired of going around and around in my bed and my thoughts .. I wish I could be more superficial and don’t care of what happens around me… is funny how my worst enemy is myself ... as in my daily struggle I can not conquer my soul ... I would like to fall asleep and sleep days…months…years.. ... today was a gray day…when I get out of bed I go near the window… it was early yet ... the majority continued to sleep ... I turned around and I a smile appeared on my face ... my sister was still asleep also ... I go back to the window…slowly the streets were filled with people…some of them are running are late perhaps…others moving slowly maybe are tired…but a new day has come…begins another day of our lives with new hopes, with sadness to discover without knowing what this day will bring ... but it's a new day and we still have so much to do ... we must seek strength even if we feel that it’s impossible and get out there in that whirlwind of people that only they know where are going and that maybe in their troubles and concerns will not realize that you are there too and you will do the same passing around other people without notice them people that maybe one day you will find again in your way without realize that yours paths are crossing once more…while I do my things now and then my mind is sliding along to fly away ... sometimes a memory brings a smile ...other times a thought makes me land with my feet very firmly on the ground and makes me wake up to reality ... and slowly begin to be lost in my thoughts but no flight in the past or the future but deep down inside my thought in my philosophies
luni, 9 noiembrie 2009
Who would have imagined that love would come into my life when i least expected ...measuring steps we walk way...everything we do in what concerns us is reasonable ... but who knows what means to truly love if we grow with each new illusion...make compromises in the name of love, forgive their mistakes and we assume our mistakes for fear of losing them...give up your life if necessary...we have learn so many thing and how many we have to learn...me personaly i found that special person...and every day i increases with this feeling...Today we celebrate 6 months since it started this great story...a dream come true ... it's his love that every day determine me more than ever to fight for my existence and remember me that I still have many battles to win...for his love old wounds are healing and i'm learning to be happy...his love is the reason for being here...How nice it is, to find you at last
after so much time alone...how is it that everything looks better when I'm with you??? how is it that nothing is the same????it can't be love, what I feel for you is much more than I ever imagined in an instant I lost my heart without realizing it, I gave you all of it and in my chest I feel a new life where before my heart only slept...you stole my heart with your love, with your heart and your soul I don't want to lose you ever, ever...you stole my heart what can I do?I feel caught by you and I don't want to escape from your life...in an instant you've changed everything what I was waiting for, finally arrived what I couldn't find in anyone else without expecting it...LOVE YOU!!!FOREVER
duminică, 25 octombrie 2009
"When the stars are in her eyes
And the sun is in her smile
The only moment in a life
That happens the same time
Is when a woman loves a man
She'll be a mother and a child
Sacrifice her days and nights
And no other will exsist
She'll put her life in every kiss
When a woman loves a man
And you'll be amazed at when you're stumbling
She'll fight for you
And won't let you give in
She'll do all that she can
When a woman loves a man
A soothing breeze always blows
Somebody understands another soul
It's like the planets have aligned
Every sentence has a rhyme
When a woman loves a man
Oh, you'll be amazed how when
You're needing it
She'll fight for you
From the begining to the end
And she'll do all that she can
When a woman loves a man
It's the greatest gift of all
Knowing that unconditionally
She'll catch you when you fall
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooohh, yeah
When a woman loves a man
When the stars are in her eyes
And the sun is in her smile
She'll be a mother and a child
But all at the same time
When a woman loves a man
She'll be your air,
She'll bring you life
She'll make me sacrifice
When a woman loves a man"
Westlife
...a really nice song...describes wery well our action when we love...for me to make some concessions and give everything for someone i love dosen't make this a sacrifice...when you love everything makes sense and there is no imposible...to love means to put that person in first place even before you ... if she is happy no matter anything else ...
luni, 19 octombrie 2009
only one months ... time spent next to him went so fast despite the fact that we have so many memories that sometimes I think that was a long long time,when I'm around him very quickly time passes and as spending more time next to him instead to get bored I want to spend even more time with him ...but i'm aware thet i need to let him breathe for him to don't get bored of me..but at the same time I am afraid and that know we are apart from each other he will forget about me...people say that:eyes not seen are forgetten... I hope not so in our case ... I think therefore can not imagine what I feel for him and how I miss him when is not with me ...it scare me this great need to have him close almoust every moment and that I love him more every day ... at first I think I have stressed him to much: D. .. now even if I try very hard not to write and not to stay so much on internet I believe and hope that I give him enough freedom ... girls say I should tell everything i'm feeling...I wanted and I originally but maybe it's better not to know ...anyway can not do anything in this regard ... and how to tell him that I dreamed with him every night (although sometimes I wish to not dream with him 'cause after I miss him more), that I wake up in the middle of the night feeling like I can not breathe as making that is far and I will not see him again soon, that I sleep and wake up thinking about him and that every time I have him in my heart and in my thoughts that is my life and that if one day he will stop love me and he would leave me I don't know what would become of me ... I hope he forgot to read;)) or has lost the link ... but If you read ...
miercuri, 14 octombrie 2009
...another year has passed in my life ... I want to thank all my friends for being with me this day,my family,my boyfriend family and not least the most important beings in my life ...my boyfriend for the wonderful gift that he made to me... just a few moments ago I found that my gift that came by mail has arrive...I do not know yet what it is but it does not matter ... the most beautiful gift that I could receive I've already received ... I have not ever thought that you can miss someone so much as i feel now the lack of my soul mate..today more than ever I would have liked to have him close embraced him and kiss him ... despite missing him so much and the sensation of a huge emptyness that I will fill only when I will ahve hin close, I am happy ... I didn't thought that this day will bring something special ... never been too special but this year his existence in my life is the best gift ..if i have him in my life and his love i'm not asking anything more for me this is enough ...is my life and always will be ... I have no doubt about ...i love you above all things of this world...je t'aime beaucoup mon cheri!!!
luni, 5 octombrie 2009
...last summer vacation of my student life has ended today.... with new strength and hope that this year we will finish triumphantly, confident we head toward the unknown ...in this year we will try to give all the best from us ... we will make sacrifices thinking that we will be rewarded in the future...
vineri, 2 octombrie 2009
22.09.09
....a closing door leting behind a lot of memories of what we live there...just walls will keep in secret the secret of our hearts ... but the memories i take them with me 'cause are a part of me and the immens love that i have for u...ends here only a stage in ourlives now proceed to another stage with the hope that it will be at least as beautiful as that just ends if not more beautiful ...love u forever!!!:X:*...
....a closing door leting behind a lot of memories of what we live there...just walls will keep in secret the secret of our hearts ... but the memories i take them with me 'cause are a part of me and the immens love that i have for u...ends here only a stage in ourlives now proceed to another stage with the hope that it will be at least as beautiful as that just ends if not more beautiful ...love u forever!!!:X:*...
21.09.09
...back home...and praing that time will pass fast 'till i will see my love again....
home but everything seems so weird ... I can not find my place everything seems so different ...the city is no longer the same ...seems familiary and foreign at the same time ...have only been 2 days but i miss him verry much...and is just the beginning...I do not know what was in his mind when he see me leaving...i don't even turn to see him one more time,i wish i will.but i was afraid that if i do something like that i will not have the power to get on the plane...I wonder what would have done if I have got off the plane and I would have said that I could not go ...if he will just know how hard it was for me to stay there and what emptiness i feel since he is far away...
14.09.09
...strange feeling...happy but at the same time sad...
i'm happy and sad at the same time ... sounds weird no???...i'm happy because next to him seems like nothing matters, he gives me power and i feel that everything is possible ... but I have and an inner sadness when I remember that soon we will be far apart ...I always wanted the time to go slow butthinking about the time i will be away from my half I want time to pass so fast like our thought ...
9.09.2009
4 months today.i'm in France for more then two weeks and i have less then other 2 to go back home far away for the one how give me strength to carry one.i like to have him close in every single moment and i don't want to think at that day when i will must get in that plane how will take me far away who knows for how long one from each other...but i must enjoy the time that we have left...cause he is still beside me verry close actually 0,5m looking at something in his computer...he can just turn around and look at what i write...but he will not do that ;):)
22.08.09
...5...4...3...2...1...
...just finish my luggage..ready to start towards a new destination of this journey called life ... emotions, hopes and prayers that everything goes well ... but let's not forget the most important thing ... the one for who i decided to choose this destination ...to be close to him one more month ... I love you JC!!!!!...:*:*:*:X:X:X
11.08.09
..countdown ...
decision is taken ...accompanying him on this journey ... he is headed back home I go to an unknown destination...but i have all my trust in him... he is everything to me and if I will be with nothing matters ... the only thing I need to smile ... and I think that is enough
13.07.09
...If I had to live without you, what kind of life would that be?...I need you in my arms, need you to hold,...You're my world, my heart, my soul,...and tell me now how do I live without you?...I want to know, how do I breathe without you?...:-<
...i must take the most important decision from my whole life ...let you go or to go with you ???... but if I let you go alone you will return ???... if not what should I do???...just as I think that will be far away one from each other i feel that i can breath anymore...
12.07.09
...love is like the wind...you can't see it but you can feel it...
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels,
but have not love,
I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.
And if I have prophetic powers,
and understand all mysteries and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains,
but have not love,
I am nothing.
If I give away all I have,
and if I deliver my body to be burned,
but have not love,
I gain nothing.
Love is patient and kind;
love is not jealous or boastful;
it is not arrogant or rude.
Love does not insist on its own way;
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right.
Love bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.
Love never ends;
as for prophecies, they will pass away;
as for tongues, they will cease;
as for knowledge, it will pass away.
For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect;
but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away.
When I was a child,
I spoke like a child,
I thought like a child,
I reasoned like a child;
when I became a man,
I gave up childish ways.
For now we see in a mirror dimly,
but then face to face.
Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully,
even as I have been fully understood.
So faith,
hope,
love
abide, these three;
but the greatest of these
is love.
Chapter Thirteen of St. Paul's First Letter to the Corinthians"
.. when you say you love wait a minute to think ... if you feel what is described above,your love is true love...the love can't be seen but our actions can show that it exists...
2.07.09
I learned ...
"I learned you can not make someone
love you;
All you can do is to be love.
The rest ... depends on others.
I learned that no matter how much I care ,
Others there can not care.
i learned that it takes years to build confidence
And that in only a few seconds you could lose.
I learned that no matter what you have in life
But who you have.
I learned that your charm can help you
about 15 minutes;
After that, however, you'd better know something.
I learned that you must not compare with what can make others better,
But with what you can do;
I learned that no matter what's happening to other
people
But matter what can I do to help them
I learned that no matter how you cut it,
Everything has two sides;
I learned that you must break up with your loved ones
with warm words;
It could be the last time you see them;
I learned that you can continue another time
After you said you can not continue anymore;
I have learned that heroes are those who are doing what must be done,when must be done,
without thiking of consequences;
I learned that there are people who love you,
But dosen't know to show it;
I learned that when we are angry
i have the right to be angry,
But I don't have the right to be mean;
I have learned that true friendship continues to exist even if you are far away from each other
And that goes for true love too.
I learned that if someone does not love you like you
would like ,
dosen't mean that he don't loves you with all his heart.
I learned that, no matter how good is a
friend,
However he will hurt from time to time,
And you must forgive him for it.
I learned that it is not always enough to be
forgiven by others;
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself
I learned that, regardless of how much you are suffering,
The world will not stop for your pain.
I learned the past and circumstances
may influence
personality,
But that YOU are responsible for what you become;
I learned that if two people arguing, not
Means that dosen't love each other
And if we do not argue that it does not prove that
we love.
I learned that sometimes you have to put the person on
first place
And his actions;
I learned that two people can look the same thing
And see something totally different;
I learned that, regardless of consequences,
Those who are honest with themselves get more
far in life;
I learned that your life can be changed in a
few hours
By people who did not know you.
I learned that when you think you got nothing to give,
When a friend is calling you , you will find the power in you to
help.
I learned that writing, like speech,
It can calm the soul pain;
I learned that people that you love the most are taken too soon ...
I learned that it is too hard to tell
Where to draw the line between being friendly, not hurt
people and support your views.
I learned to love
for me to can be loved. "
...back home...and praing that time will pass fast 'till i will see my love again....
home but everything seems so weird ... I can not find my place everything seems so different ...the city is no longer the same ...seems familiary and foreign at the same time ...have only been 2 days but i miss him verry much...and is just the beginning...I do not know what was in his mind when he see me leaving...i don't even turn to see him one more time,i wish i will.but i was afraid that if i do something like that i will not have the power to get on the plane...I wonder what would have done if I have got off the plane and I would have said that I could not go ...if he will just know how hard it was for me to stay there and what emptiness i feel since he is far away...
14.09.09
...strange feeling...happy but at the same time sad...
i'm happy and sad at the same time ... sounds weird no???...i'm happy because next to him seems like nothing matters, he gives me power and i feel that everything is possible ... but I have and an inner sadness when I remember that soon we will be far apart ...I always wanted the time to go slow butthinking about the time i will be away from my half I want time to pass so fast like our thought ...
9.09.2009
4 months today.i'm in France for more then two weeks and i have less then other 2 to go back home far away for the one how give me strength to carry one.i like to have him close in every single moment and i don't want to think at that day when i will must get in that plane how will take me far away who knows for how long one from each other...but i must enjoy the time that we have left...cause he is still beside me verry close actually 0,5m looking at something in his computer...he can just turn around and look at what i write...but he will not do that ;):)
22.08.09
...5...4...3...2...1...
...just finish my luggage..ready to start towards a new destination of this journey called life ... emotions, hopes and prayers that everything goes well ... but let's not forget the most important thing ... the one for who i decided to choose this destination ...to be close to him one more month ... I love you JC!!!!!...:*:*:*:X:X:X
11.08.09
..countdown ...
decision is taken ...accompanying him on this journey ... he is headed back home I go to an unknown destination...but i have all my trust in him... he is everything to me and if I will be with nothing matters ... the only thing I need to smile ... and I think that is enough
13.07.09
...If I had to live without you, what kind of life would that be?...I need you in my arms, need you to hold,...You're my world, my heart, my soul,...and tell me now how do I live without you?...I want to know, how do I breathe without you?...:-<
...i must take the most important decision from my whole life ...let you go or to go with you ???... but if I let you go alone you will return ???... if not what should I do???...just as I think that will be far away one from each other i feel that i can breath anymore...
12.07.09
...love is like the wind...you can't see it but you can feel it...
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels,
but have not love,
I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.
And if I have prophetic powers,
and understand all mysteries and all knowledge,
and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains,
but have not love,
I am nothing.
If I give away all I have,
and if I deliver my body to be burned,
but have not love,
I gain nothing.
Love is patient and kind;
love is not jealous or boastful;
it is not arrogant or rude.
Love does not insist on its own way;
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right.
Love bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.
Love never ends;
as for prophecies, they will pass away;
as for tongues, they will cease;
as for knowledge, it will pass away.
For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect;
but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away.
When I was a child,
I spoke like a child,
I thought like a child,
I reasoned like a child;
when I became a man,
I gave up childish ways.
For now we see in a mirror dimly,
but then face to face.
Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully,
even as I have been fully understood.
So faith,
hope,
love
abide, these three;
but the greatest of these
is love.
Chapter Thirteen of St. Paul's First Letter to the Corinthians"
.. when you say you love wait a minute to think ... if you feel what is described above,your love is true love...the love can't be seen but our actions can show that it exists...
2.07.09
I learned ...
"I learned you can not make someone
love you;
All you can do is to be love.
The rest ... depends on others.
I learned that no matter how much I care ,
Others there can not care.
i learned that it takes years to build confidence
And that in only a few seconds you could lose.
I learned that no matter what you have in life
But who you have.
I learned that your charm can help you
about 15 minutes;
After that, however, you'd better know something.
I learned that you must not compare with what can make others better,
But with what you can do;
I learned that no matter what's happening to other
people
But matter what can I do to help them
I learned that no matter how you cut it,
Everything has two sides;
I learned that you must break up with your loved ones
with warm words;
It could be the last time you see them;
I learned that you can continue another time
After you said you can not continue anymore;
I have learned that heroes are those who are doing what must be done,when must be done,
without thiking of consequences;
I learned that there are people who love you,
But dosen't know to show it;
I learned that when we are angry
i have the right to be angry,
But I don't have the right to be mean;
I have learned that true friendship continues to exist even if you are far away from each other
And that goes for true love too.
I learned that if someone does not love you like you
would like ,
dosen't mean that he don't loves you with all his heart.
I learned that, no matter how good is a
friend,
However he will hurt from time to time,
And you must forgive him for it.
I learned that it is not always enough to be
forgiven by others;
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself
I learned that, regardless of how much you are suffering,
The world will not stop for your pain.
I learned the past and circumstances
may influence
personality,
But that YOU are responsible for what you become;
I learned that if two people arguing, not
Means that dosen't love each other
And if we do not argue that it does not prove that
we love.
I learned that sometimes you have to put the person on
first place
And his actions;
I learned that two people can look the same thing
And see something totally different;
I learned that, regardless of consequences,
Those who are honest with themselves get more
far in life;
I learned that your life can be changed in a
few hours
By people who did not know you.
I learned that when you think you got nothing to give,
When a friend is calling you , you will find the power in you to
help.
I learned that writing, like speech,
It can calm the soul pain;
I learned that people that you love the most are taken too soon ...
I learned that it is too hard to tell
Where to draw the line between being friendly, not hurt
people and support your views.
I learned to love
for me to can be loved. "
23.06.09
..."when the rain falls it's like heaven's crying...there is no difference between the teardrops and the rain"...
...2 months since we met but today it's raining outside and my eyes are full of tears i don't know why but i have a sadness inside me...i didn't see u today and i miss you so much this hours seems like an etrnity...i wonder what i will do when i will not see u for a long time...when you will be in France how my life it's supposed to be because in this moment just thinking of that i feel i can't brethe...tomorrow is your birthday i what to do something spelcial for you...to remember forever this day...
15.06.09
..."if one day you wake up and find that you are missing me and your heart start to wonder were in this earth i can be thinking maybe you will come back here to the place that we'd meet and you'll see me waiting for you in the corner of the street"...
... soon you will go live me behind...i don't know if you will came back again one day or if you just for a second turn around and look back to see what is left behind...but i will remain here waithing for you hopping that one day if you will remember me will came back to this place were we met...to this palaces witness of this great love that we live together...
12.06.09
...Viviras, siempre en mi desde la tarde cuando te encontre cada minuto, mientras exista por siempre te amare dondequiera que vaya tu recuerdo va conmigo...
..."You will leave forever in me from the afternoon that i find you every minute that i will exist forever i will love you doesn’t matter were i'll go your memory is comming with me"...
...every day we wake up to start a new journey to something unknown ... although we think we know where we are going is not true you never know what may turn your life ... every moment is crucial...a word, a gesture can change your life into something that you have not thought about ...change in my life took place by a simple look and an affirmative answer when in fact I mean not ...so you came into my life and who would have thought my life would take a right turn ...no matter what the future holds for us you will always be with me ...everything can be taken but not memories and feelings...this are for a life time....
11.06.09(I love you to much this is my problem )
"..."
...I never wanted to be anybody problem and now I'm the problem of the most important person for me...i here you saying this words over and over again...i don't know what i supposed to do...until now i didn't find someone to love who loves me and now that i find you this love for you is a problem...how can i make this love vanish...how can i help you to solve this problem...maybe i must stay far from you...but i don't have the straight to do this...and you don't help me too...if I'm a problem why you don't let me go???...
..."when the rain falls it's like heaven's crying...there is no difference between the teardrops and the rain"...
...2 months since we met but today it's raining outside and my eyes are full of tears i don't know why but i have a sadness inside me...i didn't see u today and i miss you so much this hours seems like an etrnity...i wonder what i will do when i will not see u for a long time...when you will be in France how my life it's supposed to be because in this moment just thinking of that i feel i can't brethe...tomorrow is your birthday i what to do something spelcial for you...to remember forever this day...
15.06.09
..."if one day you wake up and find that you are missing me and your heart start to wonder were in this earth i can be thinking maybe you will come back here to the place that we'd meet and you'll see me waiting for you in the corner of the street"...
... soon you will go live me behind...i don't know if you will came back again one day or if you just for a second turn around and look back to see what is left behind...but i will remain here waithing for you hopping that one day if you will remember me will came back to this place were we met...to this palaces witness of this great love that we live together...
12.06.09
...Viviras, siempre en mi desde la tarde cuando te encontre cada minuto, mientras exista por siempre te amare dondequiera que vaya tu recuerdo va conmigo...
..."You will leave forever in me from the afternoon that i find you every minute that i will exist forever i will love you doesn’t matter were i'll go your memory is comming with me"...
...every day we wake up to start a new journey to something unknown ... although we think we know where we are going is not true you never know what may turn your life ... every moment is crucial...a word, a gesture can change your life into something that you have not thought about ...change in my life took place by a simple look and an affirmative answer when in fact I mean not ...so you came into my life and who would have thought my life would take a right turn ...no matter what the future holds for us you will always be with me ...everything can be taken but not memories and feelings...this are for a life time....
11.06.09(I love you to much this is my problem )
"..."
...I never wanted to be anybody problem and now I'm the problem of the most important person for me...i here you saying this words over and over again...i don't know what i supposed to do...until now i didn't find someone to love who loves me and now that i find you this love for you is a problem...how can i make this love vanish...how can i help you to solve this problem...maybe i must stay far from you...but i don't have the straight to do this...and you don't help me too...if I'm a problem why you don't let me go???...
miercuri, 5 august 2009
9.06.09
...merci JC for this wonderful month...JE T'AIME!!!!JC
wow one month...one month is not really so much time tough but with you in just one month have so many memories that it seems to me that was much more...like we are together for a life time...you are my dream come true...in such a short time you became my everything...and when I'm with you anything doesn't really matter...
7.06.09
Life is strange…one is coming and another is going but if just for a second we can stop to see the person that pass by is possible that our life change forever…I was hurt once and for this reason I decide to just go on and on without seeing anyone but when I meet you I don’t know why I decide to stop for a second and that second became like an eternity…because today I don’t want to carry on without you…you are my everything… my dream came true and I pray that never ends …last night we have seen a friend going without knowing if we will See him again…and I remember you will go too…and this is not so far away…is less then 3 months…and the time when I am with you don’t just pass it flays and it scary me seeing this moment coming…I’m scared because I don’t know if I can live without having you in my life…because I believe that you will forget about me and I ask myself what I will do then… I don’t have the answer…I LOVE YOU JC I REALLY LOVE YOU AND there are no words that can describe the way I feel for you IT’S MORE THAN I CAN SAY…LOVE YOU FOREVER
2.06.09
I don’t know much but I know I love you and that may be all I need to know
... i have decided i don't care what will bring the day of tomorrow i want to enjoy the present this days whit you...to have memory's when you will be faraway,memories to hold on for gain the straight to continue my journey called life even if you won't be beside me...whatever will happened doesn't meter you have my love for ever because if i give my hear to somebody this is remain to that person... i give you my love that comes from the bottom of my heart...
25.05.09
Je t’aime, je t’aime/Comme un fou comme un soldat/Comme une star de cinéma/Je t’aime, je t’aime/Comme un loup comme un roi/Comme un homme que je ne suis pas Tu vois, je t’aime comme ça....
...before i was believing i know what love is but now is when i start to realise what love really means since i met you...and this felling grow more and more every day...sometimes I'm scared because i don't know if you will lock back...maybe I'm just a moment for you...a way to spend your time here because you are alone and need someone to keep you company...i don't really now are so many things of what i can think of...when I'm with you and i see the way you are looking at me I'm sure that you love me but when I'm far away i have always question without answer...i know I'm thinking to much but that's me i can help it...and even thought there may be times when it seems I'm far away never wonder were i am 'cause I'm always by your side ...
19.05.09
...miss u already...:(...
it didn't pass more then an hour i guess since we say good night!! but i miss you already...10 days now since we are together and 10 days since we see each other every day...we spend a lot of time together but instead to bore me i care more and more every day and more i stay with you more i want to stay...when I'm whit him the time is flying i don't realise the hours that goes by...I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE EACH DAY AS TIME GOES BY...
11.05.09
...just happy...
…I’m dreaming I guess and if this is just a dream I don’t want to wake up…feeling like flying and I want to dream on because this is a wish come true…I can describe the way I feel…I’m just happy :D ...
8.05.09
segunda vez me toca perder....maldita mi suerte....:(…(i have to lose for the second time… damn my luck)
“Why I’m so stupid???”…sometimes I wish I can be a robot…to don’t have feelings…so many times I promise to myself that I must don’t care for what happened around me but how can I control my heart …my sister said that is easy but for me seams something impossible…and the way that the things happen doesn’t help me…but…al mal tiempo buena cara(on a bad weather we must have a smile on our face)…hopping that if they look into my eyes they wouldn’t see what's inside…so I go…party today even if my hear is crying I must smile and don’t ruin the party to the others …Happy Birthday!!!!! B…J
...merci JC for this wonderful month...JE T'AIME!!!!JC
wow one month...one month is not really so much time tough but with you in just one month have so many memories that it seems to me that was much more...like we are together for a life time...you are my dream come true...in such a short time you became my everything...and when I'm with you anything doesn't really matter...
7.06.09
Life is strange…one is coming and another is going but if just for a second we can stop to see the person that pass by is possible that our life change forever…I was hurt once and for this reason I decide to just go on and on without seeing anyone but when I meet you I don’t know why I decide to stop for a second and that second became like an eternity…because today I don’t want to carry on without you…you are my everything… my dream came true and I pray that never ends …last night we have seen a friend going without knowing if we will See him again…and I remember you will go too…and this is not so far away…is less then 3 months…and the time when I am with you don’t just pass it flays and it scary me seeing this moment coming…I’m scared because I don’t know if I can live without having you in my life…because I believe that you will forget about me and I ask myself what I will do then… I don’t have the answer…I LOVE YOU JC I REALLY LOVE YOU AND there are no words that can describe the way I feel for you IT’S MORE THAN I CAN SAY…LOVE YOU FOREVER
2.06.09
I don’t know much but I know I love you and that may be all I need to know
... i have decided i don't care what will bring the day of tomorrow i want to enjoy the present this days whit you...to have memory's when you will be faraway,memories to hold on for gain the straight to continue my journey called life even if you won't be beside me...whatever will happened doesn't meter you have my love for ever because if i give my hear to somebody this is remain to that person... i give you my love that comes from the bottom of my heart...
25.05.09
Je t’aime, je t’aime/Comme un fou comme un soldat/Comme une star de cinéma/Je t’aime, je t’aime/Comme un loup comme un roi/Comme un homme que je ne suis pas Tu vois, je t’aime comme ça....
...before i was believing i know what love is but now is when i start to realise what love really means since i met you...and this felling grow more and more every day...sometimes I'm scared because i don't know if you will lock back...maybe I'm just a moment for you...a way to spend your time here because you are alone and need someone to keep you company...i don't really now are so many things of what i can think of...when I'm with you and i see the way you are looking at me I'm sure that you love me but when I'm far away i have always question without answer...i know I'm thinking to much but that's me i can help it...and even thought there may be times when it seems I'm far away never wonder were i am 'cause I'm always by your side ...
19.05.09
...miss u already...:(...
it didn't pass more then an hour i guess since we say good night!! but i miss you already...10 days now since we are together and 10 days since we see each other every day...we spend a lot of time together but instead to bore me i care more and more every day and more i stay with you more i want to stay...when I'm whit him the time is flying i don't realise the hours that goes by...I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE EACH DAY AS TIME GOES BY...
11.05.09
...just happy...
…I’m dreaming I guess and if this is just a dream I don’t want to wake up…feeling like flying and I want to dream on because this is a wish come true…I can describe the way I feel…I’m just happy :D ...
8.05.09
segunda vez me toca perder....maldita mi suerte....:(…(i have to lose for the second time… damn my luck)
“Why I’m so stupid???”…sometimes I wish I can be a robot…to don’t have feelings…so many times I promise to myself that I must don’t care for what happened around me but how can I control my heart …my sister said that is easy but for me seams something impossible…and the way that the things happen doesn’t help me…but…al mal tiempo buena cara(on a bad weather we must have a smile on our face)…hopping that if they look into my eyes they wouldn’t see what's inside…so I go…party today even if my hear is crying I must smile and don’t ruin the party to the others …Happy Birthday!!!!! B…J
duminică, 19 iulie 2009
7.05.09
“…No hope, no love, no glory,/No Happy Ending./This is the way that we love,/Like it's forever./Then live the rest of our life,/But not together…”
Why I sad yes that day???…I wanted to say no but in the end the answer was yes…why???... I don’t have an answer…maybe it was supposed to happened…maybe my destine is to care for persons that don’t care for me …If last time I could have a chance this time I can even think about it …but I will be ok …I just hope that he will never know about this…I won’t see him anymore and this will end before to start…it’s better this way
24.04.09
“…That was just a moment in time/And one we'll never forget/One we can leave behind/'Cause when there was doubt/You'll remember I said/I didn't come here believing I would ever be away from you/I didn't come here to find out/There's a weakness in my faith/I was brought here by the power of love/I was brought here by the power of love…”
All our acts are motivated by love(love for your parents ,sister, friends, lover…doesn’t matter what kind of love because after all is love)…sometimes I wonder why we should have feelings…and more then this why we can not decide I love this person and not this person…we just feel love and there is no sense to ask why…love doesn’t knock at your heart’s door just enter without your permission and we can’t do anything about it…if you are lucky you will enjoy this love and if you aren’t lucky you must accept the fact that you should fight to leave this love behind…maybe it will take a time but in the end you will succeed you can lose a battle but not the war …I lose a lot of battles but I guess I just win the war…
Some months ago when I was preying that somebody came and save me from this war there was nobody and now that I’ve win and I don’t need anybody there are a lot of them who enter in my life and it seems that they want to stay in it but I don’t ;)) …i know how is to be reject but with all the pain in my heart I must say no…and makes me angry to see that are person who can’t take a no for an answer…funny how what goes around comes around…
marți, 16 iunie 2009
22.04.09
"…He llorado en soledad, y he reido frente a ti, pero no puedo ocultar, que sin ti no soy feliz...Sigue vivo tu recuerdo me hace daño si te pienso estoy triste pero estoy de pie...cada vez que vuelvo a verte no lo niego aún me duele pero sé que un día estaré bien..."
"…I’ve cried when I was alone and I’ve laugh in your presence, but I can’t denied , that without you I can be happy…your memory is still alive and it’s hurts to think of you…I’m sad but I’m on my foot…every day that I see you I can’t deny it still hurts but I know that one day I will be fine…"
The Easter period…the time that we met and sheer a lot of memories together…it’s still feel strange …but not the same…I guess I’m just starting to fell fine…yes now I can see me without seeing him I can see my dreams ,my objectives ,now i start to leave again and I promise myself to don’t fall in love again like a stupid If I will fall in love again I will not do it without thinking as before ,will be for deeds and not words randomly I prefer to be alone instead to be once more wrong only with love will open the doors of my heart convince me that if is not just crossing through my life he will never miss my arms, he must win my trust and not ever lie to me,to never make me cry. It will not be worth saying that you love me if I don’t hear the voice of your soul assuring that at last I can fall in love
30.12.08
soon this year will be over. another year that comes to an end and what have we done.?did we make real all the dreams or at least the projects that we have for this year???? How many can be proud at what they have realized in this year who just get at the end???...
for me this time of the year is special I feel magic floating in the air .but this time is fool and of nostalgia because another year of our life ends and is time to reflect(one more and others less)at what do we realized in this year our successes and failures the perspective with what we started this year and we managed to achieve during.is the time in which we must fix our objectives for the next year and in this way is how we conclude such a stage in our life and we start another one. This time of the year is a time for presents but is and the time when you remember and old friends and we visit our familiars ,meetings full of memories of times past.
>23.09.08(deep thoughts)
If i must think about my present life and i had to describe it in one word this will be :nightmare. sometimes in moments like this i look around me to see the others misfortune so i can be grateful for what i have but in the end i still take pity on me. few days ago i find out something about a person close to me who i consider upright and i feel disappointed. after this when i was talking with somebody i couldn't without ask my self if is telling the truth or if has second thoughts. is strange to be with persons that you know from so long and ask your self if you really know them .Life in generally is strange …are moments who seems to never end when nothing happened and moments when the things that happen are to much. two days ago i find about somebody’s life a life unhappy I didn't know this person personally but i really wish i have .it's amazing how a person can have so much and in the same time to don’t have anything.
I don’t know if is better to have a professional life and don’t care about your personal life…but i want for me in generally above all to have someone close to my heart …someone that cares for me and care for him too…the life in loneliness doesn’t have sense for me…you need someone like a reason for living… you will think that I’m speaking about a life partner but to be honest in this precise moment I don’t really think of this kind of person…who knows maybe…but for now I feel just fine like the way I am…I don’t want or maybe I’m scare to start care for someone again and to pass again for be the only one who cares…now I have something else in my mind when I think about my future life…but who know what can happen tomorrow …
If i must think about my present life and i had to describe it in one word this will be :nightmare. sometimes in moments like this i look around me to see the others misfortune so i can be grateful for what i have but in the end i still take pity on me. few days ago i find out something about a person close to me who i consider upright and i feel disappointed. after this when i was talking with somebody i couldn't without ask my self if is telling the truth or if has second thoughts. is strange to be with persons that you know from so long and ask your self if you really know them .Life in generally is strange …are moments who seems to never end when nothing happened and moments when the things that happen are to much. two days ago i find about somebody’s life a life unhappy I didn't know this person personally but i really wish i have .it's amazing how a person can have so much and in the same time to don’t have anything.
I don’t know if is better to have a professional life and don’t care about your personal life…but i want for me in generally above all to have someone close to my heart …someone that cares for me and care for him too…the life in loneliness doesn’t have sense for me…you need someone like a reason for living… you will think that I’m speaking about a life partner but to be honest in this precise moment I don’t really think of this kind of person…who knows maybe…but for now I feel just fine like the way I am…I don’t want or maybe I’m scare to start care for someone again and to pass again for be the only one who cares…now I have something else in my mind when I think about my future life…but who know what can happen tomorrow …
luni, 15 iunie 2009
I like to write but always what I write was just for my. i never let anybody to read it. but now I decide to write to the world. In this blog isn’t just the story of my life are my thoughts and the things I like too but I will start this blog whit a story about a butterfly and a rose ;)… "There was once upon a time a rose. the rose always used to be happy nothing seems to make her sad. she believed that the world was at her feet and there was no impossible for her. she was a happy rose until one day when she realized that there was a butterfly that makes her happier and that she had feelings for him, but never imagine that those feelings were so big and him will matter so much to her. She didn’t give those feelings much importance she didn’t even remember when she sow him for the first time and when all this feeling start. The rose thought these feelings will soon disappear if she will stop see him. and when the rose was cut and give away she was thinking :”now I will be far away for him and I will not see him anymore and soon all this will be just a memory .i will forget about this beautiful butterfly maybe I will see others more beautiful and he will be erase from may memory for ever.” After a while when the rose was in the market waiting that someone will buy her and she almost forget about the beautiful butterfly the butterfly fly above the rose. The rose was in shock but at the same time was happy to see him again.the hole time that the rose was in the market the butterfly was passing by more times and the rose was so happy to se him passing so many times that’s why she consider this must be the destiny that make him fly above her so many times. With this believe she aboard him but the butterfly very carefully reject the feelings of the rose. her pain was so big that the beauty of the rose was wilting.
14.10.2008
Two years know since I know this feelings doesn’t have any sense…and even if I know this I can’t stop have this feelings…yes it’s true for a month and a half was better and I was thinking all this is just a history…something that it will remain buried in my memory…today was really a good day…I even go out with my friend’s to celebrate my birthday…and I don’t know why now that I’m alone here in my room his memory through a life again…they say that the love that you feel for someone can’t vanish in a second but I’m fighting against this feeling for a long time now sometimes I believe that I will never win this battle…there is almost 6 months since I don’t see him and when I believed that I succeed to bury him somewhere in the past all this are coming back to me…maldita mi suerte
It is said that the first love is forever and that the first is the true love and that others are just to forget the firs one .... sometimes I ask myself if I had my first love and if I will never forget him? ... and now I’m only at that stage when I can realize that it doesn’t hurt that much but my love is still here and never will go completely and just a gesture or a word will open another wound that will left a scar in heart ... for me maybe doesn’t exist a happy ending ... if you will read these lines never you will know that are dedicated to you ,who wrote it and shadow because for you this is what I was like a shade or maybe just a ghost passing through your life I was invisible till I’ve sad:”hey look I'm here” ... and then you don’t liked what you saw and I was transformed into a shadow ...
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