un dia gris...a gray day

another night without falling asleep and when at dawn i thought that i succed it the first ray of light wake me up… I am more than tired of going around and around in my bed and my thoughts .. I wish I could be more superficial and don’t care of what happens around me… is funny how my worst enemy is myself ... as in my daily struggle I can not conquer my soul ... I would like to fall asleep and sleep days…months…years.. ... today was a gray day…when I get out of bed I go near the window… it was early yet ... the majority continued to sleep ... I turned around and I a smile appeared on my face ... my sister was still asleep also ... I go back to the window…slowly the streets were filled with people…some of them are running are late perhaps…others moving slowly maybe are tired…but a new day has come…begins another day of our lives with new hopes, with sadness to discover without knowing what this day will bring ... but it's a new day and we still have so much to do ... we must seek strength even if we feel that it’s impossible and get out there in that whirlwind of people that only they know where are going and that maybe in their troubles and concerns will not realize that you are there too and you will do the same passing around other people without notice them people that maybe one day you will find again in your way without realize that yours paths are crossing once more…while I do my things now and then my mind is sliding along to fly away ... sometimes a memory brings a smile ...other times a thought makes me land with my feet very firmly on the ground and makes me wake up to reality ... and slowly begin to be lost in my thoughts but no flight in the past or the future but deep down inside my thought in my philosophies